Drained

Been dealing with appointments lately - doctor, dentist, eye doctor, podiatrist, orthopedist, autism specialist... mostly for the boys, although I admit to a dentist & eye appointment in there, too. The boys both have been diagnosed with flat feet and need orthodics; seems I have flat feet too, and never knew it, & could use the orthodics, too. The doctor asked if I didn't get sore backs & legs after walking - I told him yes, but I figured I was just getting old. :-)

Did I mention all of these appointments have been within the past couple weeks, and we still have a few more to go? I thought I was being sensible by scheduling them all at once; you know, get them over with & all. Only problem is I am completely exhausted & trying to stay positive that I will have enough energy to make it to the last appointment.

One of the worst parts about raising my two teenage autistic sons by myself is that I am so completely drained all the time. I have no extra energy for the boys, let alone myself, by the time dinner rolls around. I have so many projects I'd like to start; weavings, costuming, tie dye, jewelry, but I just don't have the energy left to do anything. By the time they're in bed, I'm collapsing as well. I miss being creative. People will say, "Make the time!" I would love to have them come live my life for a week & then would love to hear where they would 'make the time'.